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INSOMNIA
TRACK LIST | 38 min
1. 5121
2. Who I Am
3. No Clue
4. Prosper
5. Never Knows Best
6. 60/40
7. Long Nights
8. Thinkin Bout My EP
9. Home
10. Reset
11. Interlude
12. The End
OR
CONCEPT
Insomnia tells the story of a kid between 7pm and 7am. At 7pm, he arrives home to his drunk mother and step-father that have never believed in his strive to be creative throughout the years. After no longer being able to be in his own home, he is picked up by his friend to go to a party in Clay. Around 10pm, they arrive at the party, but he is not sure if he will enjoy the night because his ex is present. He’s talked into going in, and enjoys himself until he notices her. At that moment, he gets a call from his sister saying his father is on life support. Being that he is not emotionally stable and not as drunk as his friend, he decides to drive home. Before leaving, Emily asked if he could take her to her car; being the love of his life, he obsessively says yes. As they drive down Old Springville Rd., he keeps thinking of telling Em how he feels, but can’t get himself to do it before dropping her off at her car. It’s almost 3am and all he wants to do is make it home. He arrives back at 5121, and wants to create some music to clear his mind. As the night drags on, he starts thinking of how life has changed since graduating and getting older. He wishes he could go back and do everything over. His thought was broken by the alarm clock he set for 7am. He was sadly awake to calm the ringing.
LYRICS
5121
Remember being 7 with my guts on the pavement
Neighbor kids stole my bike grips I was hated
All I did was take it never let it cut me skin deep
But I've always had the bars in me
Hickory I'm from the street
Full house of a fake happy Family
Luckily had money to put me in little league
Met Phil and that change my reality
After school I would miss my bus and go home with him
Anything was better than where I lived
Till this day he doesn't understand how much it meant
At times I wish those days hadn't gone and went
Was always chunky "hey cheeseburger" "how are you"
Wish I didn't except that name but it suit
Mom said it too no girl I could pursue
Hated myself and Sadly god didn't know what to do
So I put faith in myself Who knew
Outside these walls is a better view
Not a drunk mother and a step father
Who disagree on the only thing I want to do
Now I'm 22 still at 5121
And I wanna runaway West like my sister done
And see the sun how do you mistreat your son
I feel like I'm one float away from Charon
Take the coins from my eyes and pray everything is fine
Home is where you make it, I was hopin for time
To build my character
But life too drawn out I'm just character
We’re born inferior, we hide our interior
I feel like Dr. Crane is putting the fuckin fear in us
Once I leave I pray I don’t come back
Nothing will mean more to prove I overcame that
No Clue
I cum and I tell a bitch to go go like Gadget
This flow magic rub my beard like I’m Hagrid
I’m Known to bring the fuckin ruckus like Im Rocha
They aint ready for the fuck pain say Oklahoma
I’m a maniac like my name was Magee
She sayin she wants me, man she lyin through her teeth
Like Danny Brown, I make a bitch dip down
I fuckin zip down then treat it with a pound
Wow she fuckin molten to the core
Can’t tell if my heart or dick loves her more
Bitch is too fly man I can’t admit it
Take her to the crib put it in her cockpit mighty fitted
I’m like Alderaan cuz I’m bout to blow
Cruisin with a princess that I stole
Fuck that bitch though, keep actin like you tough
One hit lay you flat in the clouds with Huff n Puff
Eatin more courses need some B-12
Rumor has it Im the new Mac someone tell Adele
I’m too dope like I’ve been on Desoxyn
Take your girl a couple rounds man I call it boxing
This wasn’t passed down this was fuckin self taught
Bitches on my handlebars like the Flobots
Think your hot? Too bad bitch Im top notch
While Im stacking paper in blocks like I’m fuckin Notch
Never Knows Best
I know it's past visiting hours
But can I please give her these flowers?
Across the party all I see is you
Thinkin how I'd be better if I didnt met you
You call my phone at night I told not too
Why the worst ones always fight for you
They say the main enemy is where you sleep
Next to me I see someone who believes in me
Never Knows Best man that's what I live by
We strive to be great but we can only try
Ask if you love her in Eckleburg's eyes
Reachin for the billboards is reachin for lies
Get the green light for success and you die
Tear up my soul walkin wishin I could fly
I hate how this is where it's gotten now
Your voice lingers when your name is said around
You need to settle down and I need to leave town
But somehow you always keep me bound
Seeing you around makes everything feel alright
Tellin myself I love you man its always a fight
Down a bottle in spite just another long night
Leavin this place before you try to ruin my life
Everyday seems to stay the same
My past is looking at my present in a total shame
I'm just another kid put to the test life is your control
Never Knows Best
You're lookin at me now
Hoping that I'll crack a smile
Even if I do fuck man it's in denial
I just wonder how It got this way
I can't even look you in the face and say
God damn what happened to us babe
Seems like yesterday I had you on display
And now I pray you don't look my way
Be like Clementine erase our memories away
I don't care what you say about me anymore
I won't pick up when you call me anymore
Until I'm buried you won't have dirt anymore
And won't find me like Ryan that's for sure
I need to get a grip and just enjoy the night
My bottles empty grab another one to feel alright
She’s waiting for me now by the door
To make matters worst
My sister just said my dad is on life support
Long Nights
Man we sick of, all the liquor
We scared to drive home call a friend for a pickup
No answer, I’m not sleepin on the floor
Crew in the back pukin out the side door
Drivin hazy, prayin if I crash someone saves me
If they can’t, its okay cuz this night was amazing
But tell my mom I love her and she was great
And my will was broken by my ex’s mistakes
Leaving Clay Old Springville all the way
Its a straight away, but my vision has begun to stray
Em is the only one who is still awake
She tells me to take her back to her place But it aint even that late
Prayin I don’t Jordan Belfort in the whip
Wonder if moms sober or my dad will see me again
Hopefully that bitch will never call me again
Pull up to the pump, one sec gotta go right in
Its been another long night I hope we did it right
Pull out the Roo, Playin Blue Chips 2
2am in Clay and yet still ain't shit to do
Stay for the night babe I'll skip school
Just Give me some brain or a lesson or too
Water tower is comin up we can see the city lights
And I won't let you fall like Kelso and Hyde
I'm too faded to drive but somehow we survived
Even if we died this is what I needed tonight
Please come inside I just wanna catch her
And make her wetter than Rapture
God damn it's my city but I feel like Atlas
Cuz one hand off the wheel and there goes heaven
Home
Surprise I make home every night
The people in my life are the only thing that make me feel alright
Except for a couple drinks and that chick I like
Feel like Reggie Strickland when I fight
Win or lose I'm the underdog
Pull off the mask I'm the villain quit the riff Raff though
I just wanna know if you wanna go
And have a ball cuz I know you'd fit the shoe
No paradise on this island god I'm grindin
Just happy it's still that one place I can hide in
Hold my pride thin spent half my life in
One day leave my parents alone like a 90's film
I stay awake now when I'm faded
I feel outdated, this insomnia just keeps me jaded
In my mind I feel like I'm hated
I gotta stop before I turn to Patrick Bateman
I just wanna make it home tonight
We all got a dark side that fights us at night
Turning reason to doubt bringin fears to light
No heroes around until you threaten your life
Treat my friends like their Baymax cuz I can't lose my brothers in the fight
Fuck the hype, no money can make things right
Even when I get home there's a chance that I might
Never wake up, never live up, never tell you that I'm sorry
Feeling lost like I'm Hurley
But baby let me get it huh
Sucking on my Ty Cobb after I hit it huh
Fuckin rappers need to go ahead and bite their tongues
Cuz after I drop your shit sounds muffled bruh
But I'll shove it up your ass like the mask
And give Diaz the sweetest thing she could ever ask
For, I'm tired of the liquor
If I pass out now, who knows when il wake up
But I gotta keep goin for a Grammy
And test ever person who's against me
And trust me when I'm out the house
Murder murder murder is all I'll be about
The best in the sector
Young annilator
Bitches want the paper
I'll get to that later
It's that young Broly what you want from me
It will take everybodies energy to stop me
I know I spit wild when Im in denial
Strong like Herc but I gotta still do the trials
You're shit is mild but I'm not too hot just yet
Can't rap when your voice makes me reset
Interlude
Tired of being sad but my ex keep callin
Seems to only happen when the rain starts pourin
Forever in the civic never gonna copin a foreign
Even Zoltan saw me turn some change to a fortune
God damn I'm the muthafuckin man with it
5 in the mornin studyin for a damn exam with it
Mom knows imma skip the class but I pray I pass just in case this doesn't last
What's the chance I make it in the end
Probably 1% like the rich but spent the other 99% tryna get it right
I'm only here cuz of a mistake one night
Uh who am I tryna be
I don't care about the record sales or fails just known I'm gonna be exiled
Like Andross for goin ape shit with lyrical venom that yall come across
If sleep is for the weak, I may never rest again
Like Sisyphus even when you reach the top things fall down again
Building yourself up is impossible at 5am
So I turn off my phone and listen to the rain to mend
Who I Am
I'm the son you should cherish
But lately I've felt embarrassed
To ever say that I cared for us
You ware me down can't even stay around
I've out grew this town but I stay bound
This is years of recovery that are buried deep
And you know I barely sleep
I ain't sorry momma cleaning out my closet
All we had is now runnin down the faucet
My first love I've gone and lost it wait
Who cares if my registration was late
I wanna be with the greats
So missin a class is part of the stakes
Over the years your drinking has pulled me away
You're still my mother so my love for you will never stop
But how long do I have to watch
Momma just know imma be great
Just know imma be great
Who Am I Who Am I to say I'm not a problem child
You're the greatest person in my life
Since bein broke barely having lights
I'll never hate you but you need to know I've taken flight
Because If God got us then we will I'll be alright
People ridin the flows like the HM in the Safari Zone
I'm in my zone I can't watch my tone
All I want to do is buy you what you don't own
But sometimes you treat me so wrong
And I'm the last stitch in what you've woven
I'm the main thread but you got me broken
I want change but all I've got is tokens
Guess I'll these play games till I start movin
Trust me mom you're not a problem just my inspiration
You gabe me these ideas so I never question
My potential My identity
My reasons My liberty
Prosper
She wanna fuck I know why
She scream oh like mordecai
Sippin Henny till I die
But I'll be back ask King Kai
Money ain't no problem
Bitches ain't no problem
But once you start poppin
Man There's no way to stop them
Got the top off like Ramen
You a dick like Robin
I'm just tryin to prosper
While your ass keeps robbin
Your bitch want me to feast
Got her naked like Red Beach
Was taught never to live cheap
Cuz I'm 3 inches from 6 feet
I'm just tryin to prosper
Even with these bitch tryin to join my roster
Imma prosper you don't think you're really fucking with me
Imma prosper
Live long and prosper
Fightin my demons Inuyasha
Destined for the game
Prophesied by Nostradamus
I'm here on a conquest
That Jack White couldn't cover it
Get over it we get that bread and butter it
Houdini to these bitches that only wishin death when I start to stunt
We pocket the money, and spend every penny on bitches and Henny but I prayin that I won't
I wanna live great And make my family proud
And to never grab the and watch that fucker blow
Since 93 I've been real
Straight from the pussy, I'm here to kill
Hit you with a blue shell
We young and hungry we seek mills
Never give a bitch up
Rick roll my weed up
True Life: imma prosper
Cooler than the bro of Freiza
Re-up gettin to hot to freeze up
LCY who's next up?
Stay on the bus can't match us
I'm here to play with a clean slate
Even my Third eye can't see straight
60/40
Dad is 60/40 this might be his end
I just hope he gets to see his son once again
At his bedside, this isn't goodbye
5 minutes to speak between the drugs and cries
He heard my voice and that made him cry
Hard to see your father know that he might die
Kept my hold of his hand waitin for a grip
Drugs wearing off But still too weak to commit
Marshall standing by the door
Only friend to come with me for some support
He lost his father so he understands
Fuck Dad please just grab my hand
Nurse said its time to put him under again
Leave Decatur in hopes to see him again
Exit 334 might be my last glance
The whole ride home I wish he would've said my name
Or he loved me this is insane
My father just wanted a son in his life
But after 3 daughters I came to light
They got to really know him and I didn't
They love him more so I feel different
Dad if you hear this just know it's cuz of distance
Mom says I'm like you, a spittin image
Just know Imma make it in music for the both of us
And pray my music it will help with my wanderlust
If you die before this song is finished, I'm sorry
Just know I cherish you even though we speak lightly
When you wake up I hope I'm the one you call
So I can tell my friends you're stronger than us all
It's so hard to think how much you mean to me
Every time I hear a sax you're all I see
Your heart and lung failed you but you didn't to me
Love you Dad 60/40
Thinkin Bout My EP
The only girl I would never call a bitch
On my mind more than sex and the plot to get rich
I want us to stick together but I'm Icarus
Even when I hit the water Id swim for us
Pardon me miss, but why you so fuckin beautiful?
My fans want that real shit but this song is for you
Sorry that I had to come off this real
But it's been 6 years that I've had this concealed
I just wanna tell you how I feel (how I feel)
Even Howie doesn't see how I deal
All my friends know you're the one I want
Can't stand bein just friends when your Amy Smart
I wanted you from the start
I feel invincible when we together babe you my star
Chinese or AT either way you're amazing
I can't be the hero when you treat me like PB but
Everyday I'm thinking bout my EP
And how one day it's going to be amazing
The only thing that's gonna make me happy
When I finally get my EP
We started out enemies
Told her I hope her man didn't catch a thing
Later said sorry over MySpace haha
Remember talkin about that shit just the other day
Now I pray every week you will come this way
Stare into your eyes and hopin you will stay
Almost got married and it hurt
But if you are happy you always got my support
I just want us to have 500 days
And be together for 60 more summers babe
Let's get the record straight
You are perfect to me and no one can relate
The only one who honestly is worth the wait
Thanks Will for letting us meet at your place
Let me say Grace thank you for bein so great
My demons cant drowned can you feel my heart ache?
If tomorrow was the last day that I saw your face
Just know your the only one I didn't want to go away
I only want to see you for the rest of my days
Joe gots Sabrina and Quantum gots Red
I want my EP so it's easy to finally rest
I hope you see me as a possible match
Cuz when I ask I'm dying just to hear yes
But if you say no I'll still be your friend though
Cuz I need you with me through fire and brimstone
You can say anything to me and I'll be fine
Because you are the one to leave your spores inside
Always cheer me up. Be my Ellie.
Reset
Remember hard times when I was broke as fuck
But love and money is never enough
Expect so much from the friends you trust
But they backstab like it’s the ides of March
Oh God but he don’t listen much
Probably why most of us lose touch
Seen death first hand like Im from Castle Rock
We all want money and a bad bitch
But pussy is free if you this sick
I don’t know what I want though
Give the key to my heart like its Hugo
Can’t sleep though cuz I want dough
And when I do I’m never home
I’m not in a rush for the limelight
But don't reset me though
I hope that one day my life will just reset
I just want to power down
The life I’m leading now just causing too much stress
This life just keeps me bound
I hope one day I will reset
The people in my circle can't see my angle
Hoping for an angel that will rearrange them
But never save em I just wanna know
If I died today who would show at the funeral and crack a smile when I'm dropped below
Sub Zero flow, neck on froze is that what you wanna hear
The last three years I've lost touch with all my peers
My bestfriend for 14 years has disappeared
And all I do is wish he was here but no need to fear
When I dream I scheme that my music will hit the coasts
And as I reach the end there's no pause been my thoughts
Almost call her back and said bring the hash
Cuz I want you but I just need the weed so I can crash
The End
I feel the courage every time I hit the purp
No one wants to see you make it and it hurts
But I work till the AM hopin I'm not wasting time
My 9-5 ain't paying right so I'm forced to rhyme
What's a life worth livin if you don't love yourself
Insomnia keeps me jaded and all this liquor don't help
People see your struggles but just ignore it
Too many missed calls like I'm on some Miller shit
Momma trippin once again about my lifestyle
Stumbles in drunk askin why I'm not a wild child
S ister ran away she was a wild child
Well cheers to her, pass that shit for her denial
We all bleed the same break backs like Bane
Should be on shutter island cuz these lyrics insane
Past and present together like Spike’s vision mane
Waitin for my credits to end for my last scene
This is the end
How much longer do I have to keep it in
This is the end
When do I start living again
This is the end
I’ve lost track of where I’ve been
This is the end
This is the end
Product of a new day with no sleep
Still seduce a bitch like I’m Burgundy
We all hate driven but we need some forgiveness
Prayin to not be killed over some business
We all want to make it to the top
To call the shots but you’ve only had a desk pop bitch
I lay awake dreamin that one day I’ll find my way
To get out of this Beautiful State (Bama)
The road of victory has a fork in it
Do I want to pave my way through the middle of it
If I don’t reach the end just know I didn’t fail
This is my prestige and I will never bail
Go kick a pail if you don’t believe in me
I’ve gone through hell just to find out who to fuckin be
These long nights are the reason I’ve lost touch
Chokin the bird to death just thinkin about the bush